Hello friends. It’s been some time since I shared, but wanted to jump on to talk about a strange phenomenon that’s been happening to me.
I’m still at it, meditating for at least 10 minutes a day every.single.day. On days where I don’t get on my pillow in the morning, I find by late afternoon I’m longing for the quiet and will head off to my room for a little me-time. It gives me a little break so that I’m ready to tackle dinner and bed time routine with my two children.
COVID-19 has changed the way we live and work. We are now working, parenting and spending all of our time at home; everything is so intermingled that you never have the opportunity to shut off. On a good day before the pandemic I had a monkey mind with endless chatter running through my head. Can you imagine what it’s like now??
So far this meditation thing hasn’t been going as I planned. Yes, I’m waking up and getting on that pillow to do what I said I would, but I’ve yet to see one single benefit.
I wouldn’t say I’m the most patient student – I’m an Aries sun and Leo moon – which equals eager and impulsive. In my brain the first time I sat down, put in my earbuds, and played the guided meditation; I should’ve experienced nirvana. Instead, I left the room, went about my day, and continued to get irritated as per usual. On the second day, I even mentioned to my husband that I think I might have been yelling more than before I started this journey.
I can’t sleep. I have a lot of stress; I mean A LOT and need all the help I can get.
Life as we know it has come to a grinding halt since the coronavirus pandemic began. I’m trying to balance working from home full-time, parenting full-time, taking on a university course, and now I’m apparently a kindergarten and grade 3 teacher too. All of this on top of my regular verylong to-do list.