I Need Help!

I can’t sleep. I have a lot of stress; I mean A LOT and need all the help I can get.

photo credit Quin Stevenson

Life as we know it has come to a grinding halt since the coronavirus pandemic began. I’m trying to balance working from home full-time, parenting full-time, taking on a university course, and now I’m apparently a kindergarten and grade 3 teacher too. All of this on top of my regular very long to-do list.

I’ve been reading about meditation and all the supposed benefits for years now. There’s even been a few times that I’ve dabbled in a little ‘quieting of the mind’ myself, but it never lasts more than one or two sessions. Every time I try it’s been a not-so-magical experience that feels like it’s never ending.

I try to shut my brain up but it just won’t STOP!

Then I saw this quote from Thich Nhat Hanh We don’t meditate to become good meditators. We meditate to be more awake in our lives.

That’s it – I’m not awake in my life right now I’m simply functioning, I’m not breathing in the spring air, I’m not hearing the birds chirp, I’m missing out on my children’s laughter all because I’m trying to get so much done. Well that has to stop because life’s moving too fast and before I know it I will be taking my final breath.

So today I commit to taking the time every.single.day. for the next 4 weeks to meditate in order to cultivate mindfulness in my life. I will get started with a morning practice as suggested by Headspace and will take you – my reader – on the journey with me and share my wins, my struggles, the various practices I try, and of course – the benefits I’m experiencing with my new practice.

photo credit Lesly Juarez

According to the Headspace blog – over time, the benefits of developing a meditation practice will become reward enough to maintain the habit. So that’s what I’m going to do – stick it out until those benefits kick in and it becomes a part of my regular routine just like brushing my teeth. I’m going to start easy – every morning after I wake I will meditate for the first 5 -10 minutes of my day with the Headspace app and then see where it evolves from there.

I hope you will come along for the ride and hold me accountable because this time I’m not going to give up!

Before you go, maybe you can leave me a comment letting me know if you have a meditation practice and if so, what does that look like?

11 thoughts on “I Need Help!

  1. Hi !
    Congratulations on recognizing how important it is to slow down !

    You are blessed to have children, and you want to enjoy the beauty of motherhood, and all the things that children can teach us.
    I practise mindfulness, from a Christian perspective.
    Far from being a Buddhist practise, the essence of the Christian faith is also to pay attention to the present moment.
    Best wishes with your blogging !
    I look forward to reading your posts. 🌷🤗

    • Thank you Sally! I truly believe that paying attention to the present moment is so important and one of the greatest joys of being a human being. I would love to know more about your Christian practice.

      I appreciate you stopping by and saying ‘hi’ and hope we can chat again soon 🙂

      • Thanks so much for your reply. I’ll be praying for you as you explore the joys of living in the moment. If your children are young, they can give you guidance in this area since they are experts at it. 🌷😊

  2. I left for vacation today after I sent you a text it was uplifting to finally let go. I can’t do it all so I’m so inspired by your journey. To see if I can get that same inner peace you are seeking.

    • Pam I so hear you – we can’t do it all! Enjoy your vacation and don’t forget to take a moment and just take in that beautiful spring air. I bet walks with your dogs can be a pretty mindful practice.

  3. Hi Christina! This is an awesome read and you’ve done an excellent job creating the content. I’m in the exact mindset as you’ve stated above. I feel like there’s so much to do in our daily routine that I can’t take a moment to enjoy my 4 kids and especially my baby. I’m literally running from one task, one meal, one laundry, one homework help, one diaper change and on to the next. The only time in a full day that I actually get time to sit and take a deep breath is when I eat my lunch and dinner. That’s it. I’ve taken a cautious effort to start early morning walks with my baby and 12 year old because as you said, I want to feel the breeze, I want to hear the birds, I want to enjoy my kids and I need some ME time. Please continue your journey with us as your words define many mothers during this desperate time!

    • Jasantha your comment means so much to me! I can’t imagine life with 4 children and the struggle to have you time must be real. It’s really nice that you are getting those morning walks in with your youngest, and in 20 years from now those are the special memories that will stay with them. That really inspires me to do the same with my two before the craziness of the days sets in. I’m officially going to give that a try starting tomorrow!

  4. Christina, I can relate in so many ways (except for the kids!). I love Headspace and it mindfulness DOES work, it really is just a habit like any other. Stick with it 🙂

    • I so need to hear that! Lately, my brain is trying to convince me to “quit because it doesn’t work” and I’m not ready to give up. Do you have any particular meditations in Headspace that you’d recommend?

      • I do the basic ones and I also do the ones for anxiety. I haven’t really looked at what’s new, as I tend to stick with the same ones. I like their Sleepcasts too..they really help! I tried the Calm app, but I prefer Headspace. I find his voice so calming. Definitely stick with it and make sure you aren’t interrupted. It’s not a quick fix at all, but will be rewarding down the road.

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